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feigns death...

...yes God did damn this post too...that's why I can't delete it...but only the first message in this post is damned...the rest are deletable...

this worthless post pisses me off too...

another good reason to be upset...oh wait...there is some Nyquil... ok time partake in Nyquil Swiggery (tm)...

and now I wait for drowsiness to come...so I can dream...

and oh the strange dreams have I had as of late... very weird ones... in addition to the totally confusing nested dreams... you know like when you dream you are in bed and about to fall asleep and then you do and then you dream that you are in bed about to fall asleep and then you do and then you dream that you are in bed about to fall asleep and then you do and then you dream that you are SLEEPING about to wake up and then you do! But you aren't awake yet and then you realize that you are dreaming that you just woke up from a dream but you need to wake up and then you do except you really haven't yet because you are still dreaming then you realize that you were dreaming inside of a dream and then you wake up from that one and you know what's going on but are you really awake yet? I lose track when this happens....I usually get increasingly paranoid and then wake up totally freaked out...

sometimes I have had inexplicable fear of something and I rationalize that there is nothing wrong and nobody is around and I always feel that I could handle anything that came in to "get" me but the fear is still there and I peer at my open bedroom door...I don't get the fear when it is closed because then someone would have to open it and I would hear them and I could be ready if that happened. but I sleep with the door open so I can peer at my open bedroom door...quoth the l2icks0r!, "Nevermore."

honestly I blame some of this paranoia on the phantom of the garage door that I used to have. he would always open my fucking garage door whenever the fuck he felt like it...and even though I unplugged the garage door at night I still had this fear that the garage door would open and someone would come in and "get" me...usually as I would peer at my open bedroom door...quoth the l2icks0r!, "Nevermore."

I never had these paranoid delusions? when sleeping with someone or something else...like my old friend Meeshka the most diabolically evil felines ever - as hard as it was to live with that sick little bastard I could sleep at night when he would sleep on my bed with me...of course having a gun under the pillow also combats this fear as well as females L1 & L2

ok brain is slowing...I'm getting sleepy...and soon I will peer at my open bedroom door....quoth the l2icks0r!, "Nevermore."

That sucks.