What more is there to say?
Posted: Sat May 08, 2004 3:21 am
I really think that I am eventually going to run out of things to say or perhaps I am simply not drunk enough as we speak...except we aren't really speaking...it's just me...typing away...trying to think of something to say while I ride out a somewhat uneventful buzz. See the problem is that my metabolic rate has increased while I have also increased my body weight but more importantly, or more impactfully, my tolerance for alcohol has risen beyond what a single bottle of wine can really induce in terms of total drunken stupornessity...
Ok...so...why am I the only one that does the whole rantish thing?
Because I am the only one that gets drunk? (no)
Because it is easier to say nothing? (probably)
Because it is easier to not let anyone else know what you really think or feel? (yes)
Am I simply showing how insecure I am by using this forum for a public eye into what would normally be l2icks0r!'s personal journal? (if I kept a journal)
Are you simply not secure enough to let others peek into your psyche?
Or is it simply a matter of personality...of which I seem to have an abundancy of...
Is it a matter of being mature and discreet?
Are you afraid? Or is talking about PCs or XBOX or blah ablah blah something of higher importance - in your eyes...
I don't really know why I say what I say in these drunken posts other than I just feel like doing it. Maybe it is a way to get attention? I like attention. I would think anyone would.
Probably it just comes down to doing what is expected...and posting shit like this is NOT what is expected...of course this is not your average forum..it's made up of friends.
It probably has something to do with the fact that any persons most favorite of subjects is themself.
Everybody loves to talk about their self. And because this forum is made up of close friends, at least for me, and the fact that I don't care what anyone else thinks it pretty much empowers me to write down absolutely anything without limitation. I would even go as far as to say that I sometimes write beyond my limitations... What I mean is I when I write stuff down as l)runken l2icks0r! it all seems well and good but when l-lungover l2icks0r! wakes up and reads what he posts the night before he sometimes feels a slight level of discomfort because of revealing too much...but the truth of the matter is that it's basically all good...because I could write a fuck-ton(tm) of much less interesting stuff... and where is the fun in that... I mean this way you can totally fucking ridicule me and make fun of me and hey there is a lot of value to that...make yourself feel better on my behalf! Belittle me! Ridicule me! Condescend!!!! Patronize me!!! I love the abuse!!!! I really am a masochist...and a sadist...
Anyway... maybe it's just not your style...it's definitely mine though... and the alcohol just removes any inhibitions to make it flow so much easier...
Ok...so I actually thought of something to say now... My display is 1800 x 1440 @70hz!!! Oh but there is more... I have two 19" Sony Trinitron monitors... both at the same display depth of 32bpp too... Regularly I would only run at 1600 x 1200 at 85hz but for tonight I am feeling extra "saucy" as it were so 1800 x 1440 is totally appropriate...
Yes...Saucy-ness..
Alright.... so time to peer into the psyche of the l2icks0r! and delve into why he does not want to get a job right now...because the summer approaches... which may not mean very much to you...It probably really doesn't mean that much to most people but to l2icks0r! it's monumental. I really feel like I am the only one that feels this way. The summer is simply ...amazing...invigorating... I feel it in my soul. What would go unnoticed to most when one would take the time to sniff the spring/summer night air is magical for me... .Sound stupid? Ridiculous perhaps? I can't explain it. I LIVE FOR SUMMER.... it's that simple... It's my time... All those years at Gas Powered during the summer made me physically sick to my stomach when I had to be inside working... No one else seemed to really feel the same way I did although they said that they did. The summer empowers me....The night air espeically. Just breathing it makes me crazy...with power! hehe...
Does anyone else have this feeling? Like during the day around noon that you just have to be outside? I can't explain it! I can't be inside and feel good I have to be outside in the sun.... I've felt this way for years... And it only gets worse the more I deprive myself to exposure...
Then Fall comes...and I start to feel a bit depressed...and a little on the "Fuck, I could have utilized my time during this summer more than I did...fuck oh well next summer will be better..." attitude...Always need something to look forward to I guess...
Ok, so I finished some high gravity beer and a bottle of wine and I feel decently inebriated... I should feel drowsy soon with the 6 grams of melatonin, and 1.2g of diphenhydramine...plus the alcohol should make me sleep like a fricken baby...plus I am sore...In addition to my chest I am totally sore in other areas can you beleive that? from benching no less... my fricken lower back and legs are fricken sore...amazing... oh well I did quite the fricken workout Thursday... 6 reps @ 230lbs... for my final set ... supposedly that is equivalent to a single 271lb bench press.
Ok...so I am tired now...I can feel all the sleep agents kicking in... it's difficult to continue typing post out... maybe I am just getting more and more accustomed to functioning while completely drunk... or not... ok I am fucked...tiem for teh sleeps...
Ok...so...why am I the only one that does the whole rantish thing?
Because I am the only one that gets drunk? (no)
Because it is easier to say nothing? (probably)
Because it is easier to not let anyone else know what you really think or feel? (yes)
Am I simply showing how insecure I am by using this forum for a public eye into what would normally be l2icks0r!'s personal journal? (if I kept a journal)
Are you simply not secure enough to let others peek into your psyche?
Or is it simply a matter of personality...of which I seem to have an abundancy of...
Is it a matter of being mature and discreet?
Are you afraid? Or is talking about PCs or XBOX or blah ablah blah something of higher importance - in your eyes...
I don't really know why I say what I say in these drunken posts other than I just feel like doing it. Maybe it is a way to get attention? I like attention. I would think anyone would.
Probably it just comes down to doing what is expected...and posting shit like this is NOT what is expected...of course this is not your average forum..it's made up of friends.
It probably has something to do with the fact that any persons most favorite of subjects is themself.
Everybody loves to talk about their self. And because this forum is made up of close friends, at least for me, and the fact that I don't care what anyone else thinks it pretty much empowers me to write down absolutely anything without limitation. I would even go as far as to say that I sometimes write beyond my limitations... What I mean is I when I write stuff down as l)runken l2icks0r! it all seems well and good but when l-lungover l2icks0r! wakes up and reads what he posts the night before he sometimes feels a slight level of discomfort because of revealing too much...but the truth of the matter is that it's basically all good...because I could write a fuck-ton(tm) of much less interesting stuff... and where is the fun in that... I mean this way you can totally fucking ridicule me and make fun of me and hey there is a lot of value to that...make yourself feel better on my behalf! Belittle me! Ridicule me! Condescend!!!! Patronize me!!! I love the abuse!!!! I really am a masochist...and a sadist...
Anyway... maybe it's just not your style...it's definitely mine though... and the alcohol just removes any inhibitions to make it flow so much easier...
Ok...so I actually thought of something to say now... My display is 1800 x 1440 @70hz!!! Oh but there is more... I have two 19" Sony Trinitron monitors... both at the same display depth of 32bpp too... Regularly I would only run at 1600 x 1200 at 85hz but for tonight I am feeling extra "saucy" as it were so 1800 x 1440 is totally appropriate...
Yes...Saucy-ness..
Alright.... so time to peer into the psyche of the l2icks0r! and delve into why he does not want to get a job right now...because the summer approaches... which may not mean very much to you...It probably really doesn't mean that much to most people but to l2icks0r! it's monumental. I really feel like I am the only one that feels this way. The summer is simply ...amazing...invigorating... I feel it in my soul. What would go unnoticed to most when one would take the time to sniff the spring/summer night air is magical for me... .Sound stupid? Ridiculous perhaps? I can't explain it. I LIVE FOR SUMMER.... it's that simple... It's my time... All those years at Gas Powered during the summer made me physically sick to my stomach when I had to be inside working... No one else seemed to really feel the same way I did although they said that they did. The summer empowers me....The night air espeically. Just breathing it makes me crazy...with power! hehe...
Does anyone else have this feeling? Like during the day around noon that you just have to be outside? I can't explain it! I can't be inside and feel good I have to be outside in the sun.... I've felt this way for years... And it only gets worse the more I deprive myself to exposure...
Then Fall comes...and I start to feel a bit depressed...and a little on the "Fuck, I could have utilized my time during this summer more than I did...fuck oh well next summer will be better..." attitude...Always need something to look forward to I guess...
Ok, so I finished some high gravity beer and a bottle of wine and I feel decently inebriated... I should feel drowsy soon with the 6 grams of melatonin, and 1.2g of diphenhydramine...plus the alcohol should make me sleep like a fricken baby...plus I am sore...In addition to my chest I am totally sore in other areas can you beleive that? from benching no less... my fricken lower back and legs are fricken sore...amazing... oh well I did quite the fricken workout Thursday... 6 reps @ 230lbs... for my final set ... supposedly that is equivalent to a single 271lb bench press.
Ok...so I am tired now...I can feel all the sleep agents kicking in... it's difficult to continue typing post out... maybe I am just getting more and more accustomed to functioning while completely drunk... or not... ok I am fucked...tiem for teh sleeps...